...I feel like I'm gonna be sick.
Jesus fucking christ, it hits in waves. I knew after this week, at some point he wouldn't come back, and I tried to prepare myself for it but it's like re-living him leaving all over again which makes me nauseous and shake and fucking feel like I'm having a goddamned panic attack.
1 year 5 months 19 days 22 hours 7 minutes...
12, 866 hours...
...since the day I died.
Dec 7th, 2014
...how long before I'm okay?